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Mandy Farmer's avatar

Having said goodbye to my dear, sweet, husband just over a year ago, this post radiates with me. The surrender to God over and over and over...every day...sometimes more than once a day. This is real.

I never realized how hard and painful this journey is.

Jen Niemann's avatar

Ahh, Mandy, it’s pretty hard with losing a best friend or parent, I can’t imagine losing a spouse. Praying for you! 🙏🏻❣️

Mandy Farmer's avatar

Thank you. I never realized how hard it is.

Nicole J. Eddy's avatar

This is beautiful. Thank you for sharing your heart. So sorry for your loss, Jen.

Jen Niemann's avatar

Thank you for reading, Nicole. 🥰

Tom Hames's avatar

I could feel the emotion in this Jen. Thank you for putting words to paper.

Jen Niemann's avatar

Thanks Tom. It’s been quite the year of losses for me, just trying to find ways to deal with it all.

Ashley's avatar

Oh Jen this is just beautiful. Thank you for sharing this with us! Sending sweet love to you my friend. Blessings, Ashley

Jen Niemann's avatar

Received 😉❣️🫂

Lisa Crowder's avatar

So sorry for your loss. “My heart is bleeding” sums it up. May you find comfort and peace ❤️‍🩹.

Jen Niemann's avatar

Thank you so much, Lisa. She was so amazing to so many people in our 1K member writing community. I was especially blessed to have her in my life.

Cheryl Balcom's avatar

Beautiful, heartfelt expressions here. ❤️ So sorry for your loss, Jen.

Jen Niemann's avatar

Thank you, Cheryl. I feel like I’m wearing a weighted blanket and helmet with the grief. It’s been very hard this week. Thankfully I know Jesus will pull us all through.

Teresa Turner's avatar

I lost a wonderful friend last year and it still hurts but this was beautiful to remind me about what she would say to me today 💕

Jen Niemann's avatar

Ahh Teresa, these hard losses leave us changed, don’t they, we just get used to them and adapt. Thanks for your comment and praying comfort for you as well.

Suzanne's avatar

Thanks Jen for expressing so beautifully for many of us the removal of our dear friend and sister in Christ. Processing her death is coming slow for me but I rejoice—I exult—in her life which lives in wholeness and complete satisfaction with her Love, Jesus. It’s for our sake’s that we mourn. As she said—I’ll either live or I’ll LIVE!

Capi Cohen's avatar

I cried last night when Leslie told us, then again when I read your words. Last night I looked through my texts from her and found a birthday greeting. I have no idea how she found my birthdate. Heaven's gain.

Jen Niemann's avatar

Oh Capi! So true—our gigantic loss is heaven’s great gain!! Sending virtual hugs. . .

Stephanie Miller's avatar

This is so beautiful, thank you for sharing. I'm sorry for your loss(es) 💜

Jen Niemann's avatar

Thank you so much, Stephanie. It's been the hardest week arriving home with jet lag and her loss midweek.

Susie Abbott's avatar

Brought me to tears, Jen. Beautifully and tenderly processed. Love the connection of dance… ❤️

Jen Niemann's avatar

Susie, it took everything I had to publish this through the tears, because somehow, that emphasizes the finality of her passing. But, oh, the joy she is experiencing now!!